So I was looking at my goal weights and how I haven’t been able to strikethrough “149”. I’ve actually gotten down to 146, but it hasn’t been consistent. Right now my current weight fluctuates between 149 and 152. I’m pretty sure the only reason I was down to 146 is because I was fasting.
I refuse to strikethrough 149 until it is a solid 149 or 148 even. Weight fluctuates throughout the day (and time of the month) so I won’t be satisfied until it is legit. But a lot of that has to do with me. With the fact that I’ve been slacking and the fact that I have been so beyond lazy. The 150’s have been a nightmare for me. That number torments me. It just feel like I will never get out. Like I will never be able to say, “I weigh 140-something”. Frustration.
But it’s my fault. I have the power to change this and I am determined to do so. I’ve come too far to stop now, to get down on myself, to lose motivation. Let’s go.